How Becoming An Anglican Saved My Faith
Volumes of systematic theologies, biblical commentaries, writings on church history and various doctrines of the church consume my living space and my mind.
Most of these volumes are erudite attempts to answer unanswerable questions.
Free will or predestination?
Is Christ present in the Eucharist, and if so, how?
Mode of baptism?
Nature of the Trinity?
The Second Coming?
Dispensational, covenantal, or incarnational?
For every volume affirming a position, there are others disputing that affirmation.
There are dozens more such questions that we choose divergent answers to.
I’m not much interested in them anymore.
The only theology that matters to me is that which attempts to affirm that God is (and is good) when we and our world are so broken.
To be honest, I think that all those books and systems try to provide a foundation to believe just that…and to provide a framework to hang some measure of certainty on.
They all fail at some point.
If all your eggs are in one doctrinal basket, at some point you will have to make intellectual compromises to hold on to them or slip into something more fearsome.
Anglicanism saved me from agnosticism.
Anglicanism doesn’t demand fealty to one set of intricate confessional documents, it only asks that you engage in “common” worship based on basic, historically grounded, Christian doctrine.
Those things that the church has believed “at all times in all places”.
You are free to believe more than those basic creedal affirmations, but not less.
That foundation keeps me grounded “in Christ” despite all the intellectual, emotional, and experiential challenges to my faith.
Anglicanism is about a life lived in prayer and worship, not about intellectual assent to a bunch of theological propositions.
It allows me the space to know God and worship Him when I’m not sure about either the right questions or the correct answers.
That is the only place where I find any measure of certainty or comfort…in Christ.
I still have questions and wrestle with doubt…but I’ve found a safe place to do so and a tradition that sustains me through it all.