Back When I Was Human…
I noted this morning that our brother Josh Hamrick has a new recording out.
I started clicking through the songs and found he had recorded a cover of one of my all time favorite songs…one of those songs that everyone has that is part of the “soundtrack of their life”.
The song is called “Missing You” and for me it will always be about the one true love of my life that I lost when the original came out in 1984.
For almost forty years the song has caused me pain whenever I hear it and it made me wince this morning.
I almost started writing Josh a note telling him how much that song meant to me when I was still human….then recoiled at what I had just told myself.
I rarely feel human as my “faith” has conspired to suck all that makes us truly human out of my soul.
Christians are not supposed to be angry or grieve past or present losses, not supposed to feel anything deeply except in worship, not supposed to lust after anything but leather Bible covers, and don’t you dare feel the fear…
Back when I was human, the joke was that they would play “He Stopped Loving Her Today” by George Jones at my funeral followed by a triumphant “Whole Lotta Shakin Goin’ On”…because there was a time when I embraced being human like few others you will ever know.
Back then, giants walked the land…Jerry Lee and Merle, B.B. and Bobby Bland…George and Tammy…take your hat off when you say that name…Gospel singers shouted and rocked…Mahalia and Sister Tharpe and Dottie Rambo were the New Jerusalems where heaven and earth became one place where the very human met the Divine and both were pleased.
The giants are gone…I had to edit what I think of the new generation…Lord knows I hate to offend.
In the Incarnation, Jesus took on all that it is to be human…and Christians have been trying to neuter and spay all He did ever since.
Back when I was human…it should be no surprise that I’m in so much pain…all these amputations come at a cost.
God bless Josh for making me feel again and to remember what it felt like when I was human…I may try that again someday…