Don’t Be Anxious…Really?
““Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” (Matthew 6:34 ESV)
Five weeks ago my cardiologist told me it was now time to start preparing for and scheduling open heart surgery.
This rattled me, but I gathered myself and started the mental and spiritual preparation to get through it.
That was on a Friday…the following Tuesday my valley burned.
I’m one of those folks that has a delayed reaction to trauma…and my delay seems to have ended.
My mood has become darker and more depressed…and while there is plenty to be depressed about, I couldn’t put my finger on exactly what was eating me.
Watching the way many were obliterated by the fires produced a dread about something that hasn’t happened yet but that we all know will happen… The Great Cascadia Earthquake.
I began pouring over hazard maps and projections about how it would affect us here…and my dread grew even deeper.
It was during this self torture that I figured out what my real problem was.
The fire had destroyed my illusion that this stuff only happens to other people in other places.
The worst can happen and it can happen to me…to us.
The fire can come, the earthquake will, the pandemic remains, our country could collapse.
On the deepest level…it means I’m going to die.
It may not be on an operating table or an inferno or an earthquake or insurrection, but I will eventually die.
I believe that Christ has conquered death, but it still carries fear…it remains the final enemy.
The worst can happen and it will happen to each of us.
This is a matter we must each settle individually before God.
Until we face that reality we will continually be anxious and continually pretending that heaven and earth are already the same place…and continually dismayed when we find they are not.
The more we press into that reality the less patient we will be with trivialities and fools fanning the air with empty words.
The more we press in, the more important Christ will become and in spirit and truth we can speak of the kingdom to come.
It is only when we stare all these deaths in the face that will we learn how to live.
Sufficient for the day is its own trouble, but the grace to get through is sufficient as well.
Trouble and grace are given on a daily basis only…so take no thought of tomorrow…receive the grace for today …and put the earthquake map away.