Confessions of a “Homophobic” Pastor
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A friend posted on my Facebook page that he is a gay man.
It was a plain and somewhat courageous admission on a Christian pastor’s page but his example has emboldened me to give you grounds for rejecting me up front. My title might shock some, but by any realistic definition a gay person would consider me to be homophobic. No, I do not like the ascription but it is better for me to admit it and deal with it. In other words get the ugly stuff right up front.
Since I will admit that there are many things about homosexuality being normalized that disturb me you could ascribe the phobic word against me. Often, people who do not know how to be civil or engage in healthy conversation resort to name-calling. Because I intend to enjoin a discussion, let me say up front that if you come at me with accusations and abuse, you will simply be removed from any discussion on this page. Calling anyone a bigot will be received as if you are using an epithet and you will be blocked. Either discuss with civility or be banished.
Of course I know gay people and frankly I do not know any that I do not care about or regard with love. However, my love has never resulted in my endorsement of gay relationships or of homosexual love. So if you are gay my heart is not closed to you, but we will come to an impasse if blessing your relationships is required of me. Your dilemma is feeling that I am rejecting you for something that for you is unchangeable. Mine is dealing with the collapse of an authoritative basis for faith if I do. For you the revealed truth is based in your constitutional makeup, for me the revealed truth is in an authoritative scriptures. I care deeply about my loved ones who are gay. I pray and hope to have ongoing relationships of love and peace with them. I desire to actually listen and hear them giving every opportunity to change my mind. My deepest faith conviction is still that as the follower of Jesus I am to love all and that I never have the right to condemn people. That judgement is God’s alone.
The great problem is that embracing homosexuality as virtuous would be to deny everything I understand about revealed faith and the scriptures which are the foundation of my life. Thus, I have to deny my faith to embrace as virtuous what I believe to be forbidden. This is no small matter. I am not being asked to place homosexuality in the ranks of other sins or even of my own sin. What is being asked is that homosexuality be seen as virtuous. That is a volcanic distinction and re-assessment.
I know many believers that have made that journey, some have kindly and often privately told me as much. While I acknowledge their freedom I do not acknowledge their wisdom, understanding or propriety. In other words, I think they are not dealing with the full consequences of the collapse of an authoritative Bible. This issue will shred and perforate the scriptures until you are left with a text that you simply cannot trust. Authority is the central issue of life and a source of authority is vital.
The legislative testimony used to seek legalization of gay marriage centered on one theme. They claimed that their private happiness was of no consequence and caused no harm to those who opposed them. The reality is that the full force of jurisprudence, education, media and a all other cultural powers must now rally to the task of rooting out all opposition. Public dissent will be as unsavory as the Confederate flag in the White House. Already, religious speech is being equated with hate speech. Already, parents are facing children who have been won over by these forces and see the parents as hate mongers. So frankly there are some things to be “concerned” about if you reject the Supreme Court decision. Frankly the phobias are at the gate.