Prayer & Praise: 11/12/2023
COLLECT
O God, whose blessed Son came into the world that he might destroy the works of the devil and make us children of God and heirs of eternal life: Grant that, having this hope, we may purify ourselves as he is pure; that, when he comes again with power and great glory, we may be made like him in his eternal and glorious kingdom; where he lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Amen.
AMOS 5:18-24
Woe to you who desire the day of the Lord!
Why would you have the day of the Lord?
It is darkness, and not light,
19 as if a man fled from a lion,
and a bear met him,
or went into the house and leaned his hand against the wall,
and a serpent bit him.
20 Is not the day of the Lord darkness, and not light,
and gloom with no brightness in it?
21 “I hate, I despise your feasts,
and I take no delight in your solemn assemblies.
22 Even though you offer me your burnt offerings and grain offerings,
I will not accept them;
and the peace offerings of your fattened animals,
I will not look upon them.
23 Take away from me the noise of your songs;
to the melody of your harps I will not listen.
24 But let justice roll down like waters,
and righteousness like an ever-flowing stream.
PSALM 70
Make haste, O God, to deliver me! O Lord, make haste to help me!
Let them be put to shame and confusion who seek my life!
Let them be turned back and brought to dishonor who delight in my hurt!
Let them turn back because of their shame who say, “Aha, Aha!”
May all who seek you rejoice and be glad in you!
May those who love your salvation say evermore, “God is great!”
But I am poor and needy; hasten to me, O God!
You are my help and my deliverer; O Lord, do not delay!
1 THESSALONIANS 4:13-18
But we do not want you to be uninformed, brothers, about those who are asleep, that you may not grieve as others do who have no hope. For since we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so, through Jesus, God will bring with him those who have fallen asleep. For this we declare to you by a word from the Lord, that we who are alive, who are left until the coming of the Lord, will not precede those who have fallen asleep. For the Lord himself will descend from heaven with a cry of command, with the voice of an archangel, and with the sound of the trumpet of God. And the dead in Christ will rise first. Then we who are alive, who are left, will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air, and so we will always be with the Lord. Therefore encourage one another with these words.
MATTHEW 25:1-13
“Then the kingdom of heaven will be like ten virgins who took their lamps and went to meet the bridegroom. Five of them were foolish, and five were wise. For when the foolish took their lamps, they took no oil with them, but the wise took flasks of oil with their lamps. As the bridegroom was delayed, they all became drowsy and slept. But at midnight there was a cry, ‘Here is the bridegroom! Come out to meet him.’ Then all those virgins rose and trimmed their lamps. And the foolish said to the wise, ‘Give us some of your oil, for our lamps are going out.’ But the wise answered, saying, ‘Since there will not be enough for us and for you, go rather to the dealers and buy for yourselves.’ And while they were going to buy, the bridegroom came, and those who were ready went in with him to the marriage feast, and the door was shut. Afterward the other virgins came also, saying, ‘Lord, lord, open to us.’ But he answered, ‘Truly, I say to you, I do not know you.’ Watch therefore, for you know neither the day nor the hour.
I need prayer. Maybe I need someone to pray on my behalf.
Before you start, I’ve heard all the admonitions on how you approach God and how you’re supposed to live, think and act.
I work in a call center for a telecommunications corporation.
At times it seems like I’m starting to ‘get’ the job, and that I can even be good at it.
At times it seems like my soul is dying one call, one angry customer, one harsh response from management at a time.
I don’t know if I can do this job. I also know I am capable of doing it.
I don’t know if I can handle another angry caller. I know I have handled them before.
I don’t know if I will walk out of here at the next harsh comment. I also know I have no safety net.
I can’t tell my family, because mom will get anxious and upset and the family and her friends will want me to quit and be with her. Some of them don’t want me to work this job, they want me working some mythical job that pay great and has great benefits and you can work from home all the time and be with mother and attend to her and the company will be perfectly fine with it every single time. That’s impractical.
I dread going to work.
Usually I would say that’s a surefire sign someone should’nt be there, but right now I don’t know if that’s true of me.
I feel like I need to toughen up, and if I stick with it I’ll get good enough to find a way to do the job well, to where I can get better pay, benefits like work from home, and potentially to move to another department and possibly off the phones.
I’m pretty sure I have depression. I know I have anger issues. I know i feel inadequate, and I feel alone and don’t really trust anyone, even my own family, and certainly not anyone at work.
I feel like I’m in a dark place, not as dark as I could be, but dark enough. If I speak about it to anyone in my charismatic, spiritfilled family, I’ll be told the standard answers which DO NOT AND WILL NOT WORK IN REAL LIFE.
I’m frustrated, I’m miserable, I just want the day to end and the weekend to arrive. I’m happiest when I’m alone and driving around nature.
Right now I’m in a dark place and it’s starting to come out of me no matter how much I try to hide it from everyone. I don’t want to go to some spirit-filled church and sit there four hours a day, I don’t want to watch Christian TV at all and I don’t want to listen. to the Bible app while I’m asleep.
I just want to be happy. I’m not happy right now.
BrianD,
I’m sorry you’re going through all this…sounds like it has a lot of layers.
I stay at home taking care of mom 24/7…and it’s really difficult.
We’re not particularly bonded so that makes it worse.
I couldn’t work in customer service in this environment.
Wouldn’t do it.
I’m not sure that matters a much as other things you said.
Anger issues and depression often require outside help.
I don’t commend any of those religious activities to you.
The big question if you are not happy…is what makes you happy?
What do you like to do?
How can you pursue those things?
I’ll pray…but only you can answer those questions.
BrianD,
I’m so sorry you’re dealing with all of these things. I will definitely be praying for you.
I allowed my own anger and depression to go unchecked, and it ruined my marriage, my health, and cost me my career. Michael mentioned outside help. I was too proud to seek help. Now I live with the consequences daily. If there’s any way you can get help from a licensed counselor, it may be worth the cost.
Praying for you Brian D that the Lord will open up an opportunity for you. In the interim reading through Psalms helps me deal with my personal troubles because David went through all kinds of stuff and God was with him through it all. Keep trusting and praying also putting yourself in His hands. You are God’s unique, special artwork and are being formed for His purposes.
Michael, thanks.
I don’t know how to answer those questions.
I only know how to endure, one day at a time, and push away the demons that tempt me to end it all.
I don’t know if this job will work out. I feel like the choice is mine. I’ve also always had the sense that any fulfillment in life will come separately from a job…work is simply a way to pay the bills.
Can I do this job without &@$*ing things up for myself?
Time will tell.
BrianD,
My life hasn’t turned out the way I hoped it would.
I’m dirt poor and soon will downsize even more than I have already.
But…I do know what makes me happy and what brings me joy.
That’s how I keep going.
I love cats and I spend a lot of time with cats.
Seems odd…but it works for me.
I enjoy my books and Bibles and I love to learn.
I enjoy sports…which may not make Matt Redmond happy, but I’m not Matt Redmond.
Being old and having health issues…I enjoy still being here.
I still have hope to do other things…but I mainly focus on right now.
Learn what makes you happy…ask yourself what you need…those two questions are the most important you’ll ever answer.
When you know those answers you can build around them…and then life has meaning.
Work is to provide money to do what you want to do…
What do you want to do?